I have an ego the size of a dinosaur! And whenever my humongous egotistic self gets badly bruised, I would immediately dash off to my next door neighbor Sheila Brown, 70, a retired school teacher – the sweetest, loveliest, kindest soul ever. She always helps me crossing the stepping stones. She seems to know how to heal my injured ego when I’m pissed-off, ticked off. She knows how to wake me up when I sleep walk.
She would always listen to every single sinister revenge ideas that pop, hop and knock in my head ! She would nod her head in approval on my despicable plan about how to successfully gut my hater like a fish ! Or how to poke in the eye of that specimen from a remote distance! She would smile when I describe her how to bury all the evidence after killing the rascal ! She would laugh her lungs out when I’d proclaim, “Farewell to kindness and humanity!”
“Step back- breathe a few deep breaths- reconnected to what has real value in life- and focus on something ‘worth obsessing over’ with a clear mind” – She would wink, “A Red Snapper sounds fun?”
Then she would forcefully make herself comfortable in my garden where I’ve sown and grown some magic, marvels, miracles with all my heart & soul.
She would ask me to feel the sunlight twinkling through the flowers.
“Gardening is a stress-buster, therapeutic tool which generates positive energies in your soul. And it helps you forget the grudges that have consumed your heart”, her soft voice flew away in the wind caressing those petals.
“Take a deep look at those softness, uplifting vivaciousness, the innocence. Aren’t you inspired now to release all your anger?” – she would put her kind hand on my shoulder.
This woman totally has the ability to full-on blow my goddamn mind!
Then she would grill the fish. She knows I’m deeply, madly, truly in love with grilled Red Snapper! I adore biting in the chunks of garlicy ultra soft meat, salted crispy crimson skin, herb flavored moist flesh separating into flakes! I fancy digging around gooey custardy brain, tearing apart the head with my fingers !
She would use waaaaaaaaaaaaay too much fresh herbs which will make the grilling extra special.
1/2 cup olive oil
3 tablespoons chopped fresh Mint/Parsley/Thyme leaves
3 tablespoons fresh lemon juice
1 garlic clove, minced
Salt and freshly ground black pepper
1 local whole fish (gutted and scaled. Washed. Pat dried). ‘Red Snapper’ worked for me very well.
Whisk first five ingredients in a bowl. Let the flavors of the herbs marry, lemon juices and pepper mingle, the garlic flakes dissolve into the oil. Brush and rub the mix generously all over the skin and cavity.
Place slices of lemon and some herbs inside the cavity.
Prepare the grill (medium-high heat).
Grill the fish until just cooked through, about 6 minutes per side (depending on thickness and size of fish)
With every bite, when the flavor infused flakes melt away in my tongue, my palate thanks her. With every chance she gets, she would show me that good food and good company make life intensely splendid.
Before leaving Shiela would hug me tight saying, ” Move on. Forgive. Let go of the resentment. And concentrate on more important things in your life, like grilling fish. Thou shall not take revenge, for it is the most unproductive of all human activities. ”